its such a long n boring day today... baobei is going to work for a continuous 4 days.. LOL.. probably means i won b able to meet him for these few days.. nvm ba.. guess i juz use these few days to pack my stuff for overseas ba.. prepare my stuff aso lor.. sianx ah.. bit no mood lei.. going to b out there for 7 days.. wonder if i'd b missed by anyone.. haix!! wonder when im nt ard, do i make a difference to anyone?? hope there is ba.. haix!! after tt still gt proj n presentation need to do lor.. sianx sia.. haix!! no choice since i made this choice of going.. juz hav to take it ba..
suddenly no mood sia.. thou i keep telling myself all is e past liao don take it to heart, n thou i did tell him "i noe its e past liao, i won think abt it, im fine, im alright, don worry im nt thinking too much", bt den still im sry i still will think, i aso donwan to let my mood get affected by it (bt i cant).. bt no worries, im nt going to show it to u.. cos i donwan to worry or irritate u over this kind of matter anymore.. this feeling will goes off soon.. after i wake up everything will b fine.. putting myself in ur shoes, i now noe tt u knowing how i'd feel after knowing, guess tt's y u always don lyk me reading n asking abt ur past ba..
really eh.. e more i read, e more i feel tt he treats them very good lor.. haix!! in a few of his post he keep mentioning tt he MUZ pass his bike for her sake.. SO UR REASON FOR WANTING TO GET A BIKE LICENSE IS FOR HER?? U IS DOING FOR HER SAKE?? E FIRST ONE U WAN PILLION IS HER HUH.. PROMISED HER LIAO Y DIDN CARRIED IT OUT?? y had tt bet wit me, when u'd promised to let her b ur first pillion or mayb tt's ur own promise to urself, letting her b ur first pillion?? tt word 'muz' tgt wit tt sentence, when ever i read it i had some weird weird de feeling inside my heart, lyk will shrink lyk tt.. donno how sae lar.. haix! thou mayb he really change after he met me, bt before tt all e way when he was learning bike, e main reason is for her, he wans to ride her n wans to spend lots of time wit her, tt's e reason y he DIE DIE MUZ PASS his bike.. guess if she were to noe abt this, she surely would b touched n b wit him de ba, n there's no room for me at all.. no chance at all ba.. donno if he did think of passing his car license for me? guess nt ba, he juz wan to pass for e sake of passing.. or probably abit for my sake? its really a fortune of nt knowing.. bt since i alrdy noe le, guess there's no way of nt knowing.. most of his past blog post is abt her.. "waiting for her this n tt, waiting for her to online, wonder wad she's doing".. dou bu jian de he think of me tt often, nt even before when he was wooing me.. haix! dou guo qu le, man yuan ye mei yong ah.. after we're tgt, for few mths there's no, nt even one post is post for my sake.. sianx ah.. all i could sae is nvm, he's busy ma, cant blame, shld nt complain.. bt pls, juz let me vent it out here alright? anyway NO ONE is going to read it.. he won noe either.. as long as i don sae it out.. nt infront of him.. he don even giv it a damn abt reading my blog anyway.. haha!!! after so long, no tags had been replied.. juz let it b ba.. haix!!
bt at least whenever we meet he is concern abt me lo.. think i shld b happy enough le.. afterall, all those is e past le.. wan compare is can lar.. bt den don let him noe lor.. don look unhappy or wad infront of him ba.. hope i really can do it.. there's no point arguing wit him over these past.. nt worth it.. juz keep it to myself ba.. saying it out won help at all..
how i wish he could actually did something juz specially for me.. i really hope tt there's AT LEAST a thing i can noe tt he's doing for my sake or juz for me or can let me feel tt im actually very impt to him in his heart.. bt guess im asking too much ba.. i really hate to complain tt he did nt bother to at least spend some time to at least blog smth short abt me.. mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de.. at here sae sae jiu hao.. last time i shall sae it.. "y? last time u can kp thinking abt her.. blog abt her.. wit me, u busy i understand, bt e reason u tell me is..... there's nth for u to blog.. wit me really nth to blog?? u feel tt blogging abt me, will let others noe, nt good isit?? i do love u, thou i noe u did, bt i can feel tt its nt strong.."
there's one thing u said is for my sake n im e onli one who had taste ur cooking skills before... i would nv forget.. =)
~ holiday
~ new clothes (its always not enough, thou i've been always buying)
~ make a ideal permanent hair curl hair (don really like my current curls)
~ buy new wallet
~ get a bike license
~ buy a IDEAL BB CREAM
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