still learning
8:03 PM
im actually feeling very bored now.. n aso i feel very odd..
actually now im at his house.. supposely he shld b here wit me..
bt den cos he's selling off his bike, so he had to go fetch e buyer to view his bike..
of cos i don really mind it.. he can go out de.. juz tt i dono y.. i'd this weird feeling of feeling odd..
y do i say im still learning??
e reason being is probably im learning to let go ba..
always meeting him till this extent tt im more lyk part of his family members..
there are actually good n bad..
good is im juz lyk part of his family n his family treat me as one..
bad is because im too much lyk part of his family, therefore now he started to nt really care abt me.. or rather to e extent tt he's treating me juz now a normal person..
probably to e extend of neglecting, neglecting one of e family member ba..
i really need more care from him..
sometimes, i wish tt he's next to me when i needed him e most..
however things juz don turn out tt way..
its nt he's nt wit me when i needed him..
bt is when i serious needed him, he won b here..
probably reason is because e times i needed him are too huge le ba..
thou i'd been spending or rather we'd been spending too much time tgt, too much to e extend tt probably this causes him nt to really spend time wit me..
sometimes even if he's by my side, i cant really feel tt his heart is wit me..
haix.. if i were to tell him, he would definitely say tt im thinking or asking too much liao.. anyway, this isn't something really big deal to e extend tt i shld tell him ba.. if were to tell him, troubles definitely would appear..
i only can try to pull myself away from him ba.. probably only lyk tt i won become dependent on him.. i aso don lyk myself being lyk tt..
i don wish to become someone who keep complaining..
off to work liao..
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